lots of things happened the past 2 weeks. i'll update real soon cause i really have to run now.

well, it has been torturing.

i'm down with gastric flu. =(

been so so miserable the last 3 days. lying in bed and surviving on milo and yakult [somehow i won't vomit out these two items]. its the fourth day and i'm still at home recuperating. this weekend supposed to be v busy with lots of outings but i'm giving them all a miss.
supposed to:
*watch my colleagues play in a soccer match against another dept [my mean colleagues said that they would sacrifice me if they lose the match =/ how could they.]
*celebrate wanting's and qi yuan's birthdays
*go for smu tea session

i need to make plans for june. soon.

i love my mummy!
please say 3 of us look like we are sisters! my mum will be so flattered! though it would not sound flattering for my sis and me.

we went to corpthorne waterfront - cafe brio, with uncle and aunties and cousin to celebrate mothers' day. theme of buffet was greece. nice food.

time to admire my uncle's lamborghini after dinner. the sound of the engine starting up makes me deaf. but i just like to hear it. haha. don't mind watching f1 actually.
felt really quite sorry for not giving a present to my mum yet. my sis and i kept like dragging... supposed to get her the foot reflexology+pedicure package, but we haven't decide which shop we should go and when we should book.

i know what's the best present for my mum and i'm so sad that i can't give her cause its really not within my control. =( =( =(

really feel that i'm like getting exceptionally selfish these days. its like many pple are concerned about me and i just avoid telling them what's going on. a friend sort of told me off a few days ago that this shouldn't be the way. its just so difficult to explain how it feels. but hey, wait till u are in my shoes. sorry my friends.

btw, i feel super mad. to those pple in ____, please stop pushing me around.

my tutee's mid year is here. good luck to her [i mean no sarcasm]. i can see she's improving. so glad for her. if she pass her paper, i'll be so proud of her=D

look what she wrote on her mid year timetable. before teachers think that marking kills, please see how their poor students are surviving.
jia you to those who are working hard and fighting this war. juniors, you all are included =D

=( =( =(

i guess its a really fine line to thread between being hopeful and giving myself false hopes.

its seriously time to redefine my life.

oh, and i would just like to say how much i love my lao gong and sze min. my lao gong understands me the best and sze min makes me real happy.

worried and scared

my lao gong called me 3am yesterday. i didn't answer. but i knew it wasn't going to be anything good cause she won't call me (at such a weird time) unless something happened. so after sending her a message, she called my home in the morning. heard the news from her and i really feel damn sad for her la! =( and of course i'm worrying more for myself.

i felt really bad. cause i thought her grades would get her into _________. and my sis also thought so. and i would always assure her, telling her not to be so kua zhang (as in not to think too much). and now it didn't turn out the way we thought so!!! yesterday when i was telling mr tan about my lao gong, his reaction was like saying "why did u assure her?" but i swear i didn't expect things to turn out this way. anyway, my conversation with mr tan made me feel sadder. he didn't say anything discouraging but what he said just reminded me about unhappy stuff. [btw, he was more concerned about me buying food from his class stall... i was super distracted by his students who kept trying to sell me some food =x]

everything is getting really unexpected and uncertain. and my lao gong told me something which made me feel really cheated by someone. perhaps cheated is too strong a word to use. but its that feeling. i read someone's blog and i had the same feeling. i guess soon i'll get accustomed to it.

anyway, college day was boring la. haha, but i did have fun (lots and lots) talking to kahyan [i love her sooo much!! =D] and also going with the juniors for dinner. hmm. hearing about the pants incident from audrey and duqian was super funny can! i miss all the crazy stuff we did together [but i guess that does not equate to missing sch life]. realised that i became more thick-skinned after i knew them.. and not so afraid of throwing face anymore [oh no]. haha. and kahyan kept saying i'm _______. NO LOR! its more like her being ____ who kept asking where's her "nan ren". -_-. horrible minghan snatched my phone to look at my stuff. so scary can! even my lao gong don't get to peek inside ok! but heng, the v NICE audrey got it back while du qian and kahyan kept laughing at me trying to get my phone back. so mean!

thanks to those who wished me luck! appreciate it lots!

and to WAN TING,
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!

please

DONE but not done
i'm done with my last interview yesterday. at last. =) only worked 2 and a half days this week due to interviews and labour day. hee.

interviews have been rather ok. i wouldn't say i did well(because i really didn't), but i really tried my best. hopefully more news (and please, let it be good news) come in soon. cannot help but to worry and think about what have happened. seriously, i know there's no point. but i just need to worry.

Shopping
went shopping at vivo on tues after interview. yes, and we went to get the ben&jerry's free cone after a heavy meal at asian kitchen. *burp. then on wed, i went shopping at raffles city with helena and jan cheo before interview. shopping's becoming something v stressful.cause i can't buy what i want from dorothy perkins, pull&bear, agnes b, gap etc. i need to save money! read below.

I want!
its the month of MAY. so fast can! v soon, half of 2008 will be gone. haven't learn any constructive stuff (as in skills) this year and so i'm planning to learn some new stuff. remembered that i was supposed to learn jap language with shirlyn at the beginning of the year but that girl went army so we didn't learn in the end. i realised that the things i want to do need lots of money $$$. will have to spend all my money earned from my vacation jobs (so far) or even more if i want to do everything below:

• learn muay thai. really cannot wait to learn this! oh,i know of someone who's a pro at this and he's REALLY good looking. but he's attached. boo.
• learn yoga. not v keen as compared to learning muay thai. but cause i'm too lazy to go gym, i guess this is an alternative for an exercise
• go australia. starting to plan already. just waiting for sis to be done with her exams =x. yup, most prob its going to be melbourne + sydney/perth/brisbane. though its pretty obvious that melbourne+sydney is the best combi

strangely, learning driving is not in my list. maybe not yet. haven take my BTT. so slow right. most likely, i'm taking the july one.

there's like so many things running through my mind recently. and i'm sure it will continue for at least the month of MAY. but some things didn't seem to matter that much. only ONE thing. please let me have it.