i'm feeling a bit better. i'm slowly climbing out of that pit of unhappiness. and pls don't let me fall back.

i'm so happy for kahyan. =D =D =D YAY-ness for her!

went to kbox with kahyan on mon (a v last minute decision)! its SOOO tiring. =/ ok, we sang for almost 5 hours and there's only 2 of us so we don't really get to rest between songs. but i really enjoyed singing with her =D she's so funny.

had oyster outing on thurs. met at raffles place and had subway. chongren and tengjin were talking about ns stuff. and somehow they made the stories sound v funny (esp chongren) - i guess there's really a great difference hearing about ns stuff from them and hearing from s01 guys. chongren said in a really interesting way. then eddi suggested that we moved to clarke quay's pitstop. had a super fun time there. and EXCUSE ME, why must they keep reminding me about me eating tengjin's tofu! =x its so embarrassing la. poor shuyi also got made fun of her unglam shot eating the donut.

just came back from s01 class outing. fish&co. JO'S a BIG BULLY. fullstop. horrible girl kept saying that i'm the second wife of tang renjia. like HUH! i'm mrs chou lor =p anyway, nice catching up with the girls.

really thinking hard if i should accept that offer. actually no. i'm not thinking that hard actually. just chucked the letter somewhere under some stuff.

engin camp '08

(this is going to be very lengthy)

day 1
met shuyi at bus stop then we headed for the meeting place. wore blue shirts cause blue rep our house colour. saw michelle - who's supposed to be in the same group as shuyi and me but they took her away to another group cause they needed another girl in the other group. i met ai ping who's my pri sch friend - kept talking to her whenever we met during the camp =D ok, there's an obvious unbalanced ratio of guys and girls. most groups had an average of 1-3 girls. shuyi and i were the only girls in our group. 7 other guy freshies in our group - oyster [funny name. haha]

played games (not sure if they are called war games) and they were pretty fun. but the weather's so hot can!






checked into raffles hall - there were single/double rooms available. shuyi and i took the double room (duh). we were initially on the 1st floor which was the guys level. then we changed with sean and chun kit cause v inconvenient for them who were on the girls level. then we realised that we couldn't lock the room and there were no curtains so we changed back to the guys level. haha, so ma fan the guys. after dinner we had the sp (secret pal) thingy. thought it was quite dumb but it turned out rather ok. i was called portia and my sp was bruters. had to be blindfolded during the talk and we couldn't reveal our names/OG/house etc. my sp was v nice. could tell that he was a gentleman. i v jian cause i peeked and saw his slippers [after the thing, i looked around to see who got those slippers and found the person. and i also knew he was from jj so i knew he's the one since he wore a jj shirt =p ]. the councilors v mean lar, keep forcing us to hold our hands. during the obstacles we had to sing a duet. so silly can. realised we didn't ask each other our traffic light status [meaning, relationship status - red: attached, amber: complicated, green: single]. but can tell that he's single. haha. after the sp thingy, we were asking our group pple abt their sps. and some were really funny. cai kwan's sp keep scolding him. haha! and _____'s sp said he dated the hottest girl in sch. haha, so bu yao lian.

learnt mass dance before we went back to rh. super tired.

day 2
went sentosa for beach games. another hot day. games were v tiring and later we had the island hunt (or whatever it's called). haha, royden's damn pro. he knew where's the places we had to go to. so our group called him sunshine boy (in chinese). v funny. he can go work at sentosa already. shuyi and i were feeling bad cause we couldn't go down into the water so the guys had to pair up with each other which was v xinku [esp, those games that the guys had to carry each other].but we played every land game ok. realised that the camp was more for girls than guys. cause the girls couldn't escape the games since every game we had to send girls to play and there weren't enough girls at all. the game master would always say "we want one girl and one guy" - keep having guy-girl pairing. so tiring can. =x

had bbq for dinner. chongren's super funny. he was high-ing over the crispy food. HAHA.

we had sp talk at night again. super strange cause i had a different sp. and this sp said he's bruters so i was wondering who's the guy i spoke to on the first night..? anyway, i was a bit high after bullying cai kwan at the auditorium so the sp talk was quite high also. my sp and i had like quite a lot of mo qi... cause there's this councilor asking us what's our traffic light status. and we decided to say that our traffic lights are spoiled. lol. ok, he's from hwa chong... quite pro cause he won some 1st prize for a calligraphy competition. i think i gave him some bad impression by saying i like guys who ___________. and he was like HUH-ing super loudly. the councilors made us hold hands (as usual) and we had the same reaction. HAHHA. both of us went zoo recently so there were some common topics to talk about. and i knew he was attached. lol. i was asking the councilors why i got 2 different sps and they kept asking me to choose which one i like more ... they were like "so u like M1 or M2?" lame la.

______'s sp was v v funny and super weird. talked about this v er xin topic about dogs. yup, i'm not mentioning who's sp is it, or i'll get that person into trouble. anyway, it got our whole group laughing like crazy.

day 3
pool games. only the guys played and they were great. haha... think the water cheers done by the guys are v funny. got them video-taped and watching it is really v hilarious la.







later in the evening, it was time to reveal who our sps were. my 2nd day sp was revealed to me only, so i can't confirm who's my first day sp. the lousy candle-light dinner was quite awkward in the beginning (especially immediately after our blindfolds were removed) but it got better later. and later we started to talk about his girlfriend (and i was right about him being attached! haha). quite interesting to know how he woo-ed her.

(my sp - we took this photo on the finale night)




NEXT WAS FRIGHT NIGHT. i was damn scared! and the guys were talking about their ns stories. SOOOOO scary u know! so scary that i teared =( was thinking of some sad stuff at that point of time so its like feeling both scared and sad! horrible!! later we had to pair up [guy-girl again] to get into this haunted house. before that we were told the story behind the house - how it used to be a childcare centre etc.... in the end i paired up with teng jin - he's v brave so luckily i paired up with him. if i pair up with cai kwan, i will just faint on the spot =s.

the haunted house was really v scary. though i know all the "ghosts" were councilors and nothing will harm me in there, i'm still v v freaked out by all those stuff inside. and the worse thing is that some tasks have to be done by the girl. the first "ghost" kept saying "jie jie...can help me take the doll... " damn scary la cause i knew something will pop out from behind so i screamed "kor kor will do it!!" teng jin v funny cause he still can negotiate with the "ghosts" if he can do the tasks in place of me. poor teng jin! i grabbed him like crazy... i was apologizing to him when we were in the house for taking advantage of him. but teng jin is really v nice and protective! thanks teng jin!!
was still scared even though the fright night was over and i couldn't sleep. heng our og played saboteur together... so i could like calm down for a while more before heading back to our room.

saboteur was fun and funny cause cai kwan kept making us laugh. suan-ing him was really fun and seeing him being suan-ed was also fun. we are really mean! =p

day 4
city hunt. our group just slacked around at raffles city burger king and crapped. too tired/lazy to go around to do the hunt.

we had finale night. changed to our informal wear before going to kent ridge hall. had the engin pageant and teng jin represented our house and won overall. *claps* haha, we all knew he would win cause he was better looking than the rest of the reps. after all, looks are the most impt in a pageant right. our house won too! we are so zai =D haha. after the finale night was phototaking time. the OGLs give us a really nice gift - group photo + message. and all our messages were really customised =D. thanks OGLs! after that went back to rh to squeeze into a room to spend the night cause each OG only had a room for the last night. we left for home in the morning.








ENGIN camp was really great! so glad that i came to the camp with shuyi. i love her to bits. we talked about lots of stuff - both openly and behind closed doors. gossiping with her is shiok man. hahaha. and i want to meet MR HOME [inside joke] - he's SO COOL!

i love the new friends i made - those OGLs and oyster group members - chongren, royden, cai kwan, sean, john, teng jin and chun kit. you guys are missed =D

home sweet home

i'm back from engin camp. fun but tiring. made really great friends. =D

will update soon again about the camp when andrew, teng jin and chongren put the photos up. and pls, no unglam shots of shuyi and me.

and why is it friday again! realised that i don't look forward to fridays ever since work has ended for me. cause when friday arrives, it feels like time REALLY flies. and i just love mondays cause there's the whole week ahead.

i'm really lost. there's so much things that i'm uncertain about. have to make decisions soon!

i'm scared=(

changed skin

goodbye to my previous skin.
this new skin is really plain but i love simple-looking skins. will try out left alignment and prob will change back to center when i feel like.

badminton with yuting was quite funny. rather scary too cause pple on the court next to us were pro pple. erm, and those were kids. kahyan and kaihui couldn't make it so we'll prob try to arrange another session for everyone when yuting is back from her trip.

went tp lib after lunch with yuting to look for some books on melbourne. she's going end of this week for a rather long time. so when she's back, i'm going to see all the photos and decide if i want to go to those places she went. the culinary section is beside the travel one so i was distracted by the cookbooks [i'm in love in cooking recently, u see.] ok, someone called my phone and i answered. UH-OH. trouble. ok, its not a v big problem. but still, its a problem. and i must solve it soon. =x

some dishes that are from the latest cookbook i borrowed(will be trying them out soon):



its time for lunch and after lunch, i will continue planning the trip.

ouch. my neck hurts.

i think probably i should blog more about random stuff and not blog only when there's some special events. so here it goes.

been watching que sera, sera (korean drama) after snow queen (the repeat) ended. its the second time i'm watching snow queen and its still so sad. no, its actually sadder. the thing is, because its the second time i'm watching, so i know when's the next sad part (like when someone's going to die) and i'll start feeling sad even before the part is reached. ok, back to que sera, sera. not sure why i quite like the show. its just so... flirtatious. The male character keeps flirting, so does the female character. ok, maybe that makes the show quite interesting and funny. haha, but i won't really recommend pple to watch.

*paragraph removed - hee, don't want to get into trouble.

i'm going to play badminton with yuting later. hope i won't get too tired easily since i just gym-ed last sat.

btw, i went to the zoo on sun with my family (dad, mum and sis). and i enjoyed the trip =D

p.s i'm still helping my sis to look for volunteers (guys & girls) for newspaper collections at bedok on 28th and 29th june. would appreciate if anyone can help.

co's concert =D 05062008

i met qn for lunch. we had a hard time deciding where to meet up. silly qn still suggested going compass point or my house which is like super far for her. FINALLY we decided on j8. we talked about our usual topics over lunch. quite funny. she should be flying to hk now. so jealous! i want to eat hk's laopo bing [ben bought for me a whole box when he came back from hk, its V V nice =D ]


after that, i met yuting at ps and we got meichen's present from bodyshop. [ HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEICHEN!] the nice salesgirl gave me discount still even though i didn't bring along the membership card. =) hope mc likes the present! we had dinner and off we went to nj for the concert. rushed all the way cause we were running late. thanks kahyan and kaihui who helped us chope seats!


the concert wasn't too bad. good job to audrey and duqian who were the emcees. thought that the xianyue performance was the most enjoyable. the juniors - audrey, joson, elina [think i got her name wrongly] and patrick - who were part of that performance were great. cellobass had some funny actions during the encore piece. v entertaining! haha.


some photos:

i miss cindy koh and she misses me too!

and of course jm is missed too! this photo's v funny cause jm's looking at my cam and i'm looking at her cam.

i miss playing the cello! haha, not sure if this was the one i've been using. i just anyhow grabbed one cause its so chaotic on the stage after the concert! i wasn't ready for the cam and i was snapped already x_o
some juniors:

hmm. not sure if i should take up a new job cause my laogong asked if i want to do the same job as her. the working hours are long but the no.of working days is rather flexible. and i think it'll be nice being able to work with my laogong.

BUT i seem to be in the school hol mood now and kind of enjoy the leisure time i have though sometimes the things i do can be quite ... er, lame. things like: help my mum do some marketing and housework, cook my own lunch [i love to cook!], go library with kahyan, play badminton with yuting etc. (ok, i think i'm like a housewife - doing things that a housewife does) hmm, money's not really an issue to be considered now if i want to work - as in, i don't think i want to take up the temp job for the sake of earning the money. time is more important to me - i want to do things that i may not have much chance to do in the future. my colleague ever told me that i shouldn't work so much now cause working is the thing that i'll be doing for the rest of my life after uni. which is so true can.

hee, it seems that i'm more inclined to not working. but i still haven't confirm my decision and lots of things are weighing on my mind. HELPPPP.

sometimes i really want to believe that miracles do happen.

SAD

last day of work at ey
my nice colleagues treated me lunch at boat quay. a BIG thank you to my colleagues =D lunch was pretty funny where we were talking about face movement (not sure if that's the phrase to use) and see who could do those stuff. e.g., turning the tongue (jan cheo was v FUNNY and quite silly actually. haha). after lunch, chew yan and I went to buy donuts for the dept. the journey was quite funny cause horrible chew yan bullied me ALL the way. and i told her that i'll complain to brian which i really did (thanks to chew yan who told brian i had something to tell him and i was like ERRR... =x). haha. ok the last day was happening for me at least. talked to a few pple before i left. cindy was a BIG BULLY. kept asking me if i took care of the (latest) laptop and tried to refuse paying my salary/OT cause i didn't treat her lunch =x. she also kept telling me to go overseas for hol/to study cause her niece at perth can take care of me. [oh, and CINDY SAYS kelvin can't take over my laptop. if he insist, he can take the super lao pok one.]

many of my colleagues said that i've changed a lot since i joined BAS. kept saying how quiet i was when i came and now i'm so ... .... i guess to a certain extent what they say its true and i think i'm really badly influenced by them lor! hai` learn all the bad traits from them e.g. try to make me go to mambo night etc. the guys always try to pollute my brain with all the women psyche and the "ladder theory" and lots of stuff. haha, i'll always remember the *(n/2 + 7) formula for guys [not sure if it was formulated by edwin or chongwei].
i did a card for them. chong wei read it and he said i wrote lots of trade secrets in there! where got!! long lunches + juicy lunch topics are not considered trade secrets ok.


had really a great 3 months in BAS. this is the most wonderful work experience i had so far. love everyone <3

some photos taken on helena's birthday:

outing with pamela, pamella and chengyi =D

this was a long awaited outing! haven't seen pamela for the longest time! at least i saw cheng and pamella last year. everyone is still the same (cheery and crazy) - especially cheng. they really cheered me up. realised that whatever they tell me is always so reassuring. i love my friends! after dinner, we hanged out at gloria jeans and they made me talk about _______&_______. it was really quite exciting to recall all that happened. and i think that's the first time i practically related the WHOLE story to someone. it was like gossiping about myself. the rest also talked about their stories. pamella's one was quite scary i thought. and we saw_____ 's boyfriend on her phone and we thought he looked like a nice guy=D haha, must bring him to see us soon!

*photos to be uploaded soon.

=( =( ='(

i didn't get dentistry. quite expected since my results weren't good enough and 70% of the admission score was calculated based on results. the fact that i was shortlisted for the MDT and interview made me v surprised and happy. derrick and cherlynn were with me for lunch that day when i found out. damn sad. almost cried when talking to qiu ning over the phone (horrible derrick who was with me didn't do anything to console me lor). although i'm really prepared for this to happen, i cannot help but feel disappointed. i told my mum that if i get the overseas one, i'll go immediately. ok, that was really rash of me to say that cause i didn't consider many many other factors. i'm selfish i admit. =( and its easier said than done to go overseas. cause the recognised aust unis only accept an average of 5 international students for the course. but i applied anyway, not being hopeful still. had a pretty long conversation with mitchell at work (thanks yihan for lending me your phone).i really envy him for being in aust. quite confirm i'm not going to survive well overseas cause i'm really not an independent person by nature (though i'm trying to be one). its really hard to decide if i should move on with life and be contented with chem eng (which i already accepted - not sure if i'll regret. can predict my life for the next 4 years, by looking at my sis) or hang on to what i really want and do more for my future - and trust me, there's really lots to be done, but all at a cost.

sometimes some pple make things worse for me. and it makes me feel more sad - the feeling of being alone and having no support (and support is something i need at this point of time). but it seems that some things i need to think it over, alone. i really don't know what i want.

was glad that some events later actually made me a little happy and brought me away from all my troubles-

*went settlers' cafe (the one near clarke quay) last last fri with my sis and sarah (sis's friend) cause there was some get-together event there. met new friends - javin and his VS friends. had a fun time there cause the guys made me laugh.

*went to changi beach club on sun. watched some kids having their swimming lessons. my sis and i stood and watch and laugh at them cause their actions are really v cute!! ok, we are mean.

MAKE ME HAPPY.