1st month :)

woke up this morning after having a nightmare about me not answering two whole osce questions. it was scary cause it felt really real. i don't know why, but i've been kind of stressed the last week (yes, stressed during my holidays). i blame it on my GP clinical exam which is coming up soon at the end of august. still finding a suitable pt for my exam (which is considered last minute) and i really pray hard that this pt that i'm going to screen at the end of July is going to be a suitable one.

it seems like time passed really fast since i came back from my new zealand trip. and i seriously can't sort of recall what i have been doing since i came back. and its like only a week more of holidays before sem 2 (the scariest sem in the whole dental course) starts. time to get some work done, i suppose. but its the holidays :(

k's been really encouraging and spending time with him makes me feel less stressed (or maybe even more, since he's smart and knows his stuff whereas its the opposite for me :( ). and the one month (like what he said), passed really fast for us.
my family's reaction is really funny when i broke the news to them. and my mum's just so nice and understanding towards everything. she's the most awesome mum. love her ttm!

and i really don't know what to do at the end of the year (to go or not to go) :( but i know God has plans for me.
so leona, just breathe in and out, and trust in the Lord :)

:'( and :')

still trying to get over what happened. and i'm so dreading this week, esp tomorrow. Lord, please give me strength to overcome my fears.

i've been thinking way too much, feeling upset about stuff that i should have already gotten over. but u know how there's just some triggers (e.g. people around u) which remind u of unhappy stuff (but of course they don't do it intentionally) which just pulls u back down to where u started off.

anyways kind of relieved that OSCE was over yesterday. holidays have started, but not on a good note, and definitely not the way i want it to start. i keep reminding myself that God've made plans for me, and i should accept them and make the most out of what i'm going through.

so the consequence of thinking too much, is waking up at 6am on the first day of my holiday (after sleeping past 2am the night before). been sleep-deficient the previous nights. i wonder how my mind even have the energy to think about stuff. and crying the moment u wake up isn't a good start to the day. i thought tomorrow is always a better day?

didn't join the rest for post-exam dinner yesterday (didn't want people to sense that i was unhappy), but instead, had dinner with su and joseph (my favourite couple). hanging out with them kind of cheered me up a little. they are just so reassuring. like when they tell u not to think about it, u will really be kind of convinced to not think about it (though its not a lasting effect but at least it works for a while). so glad to have them around. on a side note, su showed me this korean singer that totally made my day and she sent me some pic of me and him side-by-side that she put tgt. awww she's too sweet :)

and my other awesome friends - mitch, yt, jm and parmesh, thanks for showing concern/trying to make me feel better. 

mum has been praying esp hard for me this period and i know my family gives me the utmost moral support. appreciate all that they have done :')

for now, i'll stay strong :')

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Praise the Lord :)

happy mummy's day :D

<3 u always :)

week 4 of uni

wow its week 4 already. been slacking so much that i really wonder if i did any concrete studying during the past 3 weeks of uni. and i guess the answer is no, sadly.

and i really shouldn't be updating my blog now since i have to prepare for my perio presentation tmr =/ i have to read and familiarize myself with the 16 pages of content that su and i have written. i foresee myself dozing off in front of my lappy soon. ya i seriously don't know why i've been so tired these few weeks =( i sleep more than usual. i blame the weather.

awww mummy's coming on the 31st and i can somehow sense her excitement about coming to melb. she kept asking what i want her to cook when she's here. so sweet right (i love my mummy ttm!)

and yes, i found a part-time (or rather, casual) job. teehee. i went for training last week and i felt a bit stressed by the job cause its fast-moving environment but the people are nice and i really hope i would be able to work with my friend (she's really awesome). i just checked the roster for this week and guess what, i'm only working 2 hours this week. LOLL, i want to work at least 4 hours! but i really don't dare to negotiate with the supervisor cause i'm a newbie. and i think i need to work more often to get used to the job. but ya, maybe it's also good that i have more time for my work (that's provided i really make use of my remaining time to study).

Ahhh i can't decide if i should go cairns with my dent friends during the mid-sem break in sept! the whole trip will cost about A$800 to A$1000 depending on the activities that we'll be doing. i think i might just snorkel/dive etc. definitely not sky-diving. totally not mentally prepared for it. i thought if i'll be working more often then chances of me going is pretty high. but looking at my working hours now, i think i should carefully consider going to cairns.
i know i eventually want to visit cairns and probably sky-dive, maybe when the flight is cheaper or something? i really don't know!! =//

i skyped with pam yesterday and i really miss her company here in melb. i really hope she'll be back in melb to visit soon!

happy day

i feel happy today even though,
i've been slacking too much and wasting my time (not doing anything useful since uni started); and
i got woken up by parmesh's calls yesterday and this morning which kinda shocked me (and i really don't like getting shocks in the morning); and
i went to uni today even though its my official free day (still can't believe that my group is so lucky to have every thurs off).

YEA, but still happy,because,
its my MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY today! and i called her just now to wish her and she was happy + excited from receiving my birthday wishes (so cute right) and i'm happy whenever mummy's happy; and
i kind of enjoyed assisting parmesh today in the clinic (actually glad that i went to assist her. i'll be wasting my time at home anyways and i get to meet my friends in the clinic and chat with them. loll); and
i can watch city hunter (with ENG SUBS) tonight. second last episode though. i'll miss lee min ho! hahaha

life's good when u feel good. =D but but, i need to start being disciplined (study more and eat less!).

yea and i'm so not looking forward to celebrating my birthday with friends. i don't like to celebrate with a big group of friends. prefer small groups' celebration and like to celebrate with my family the most. mummy said when she come to melb in late aug, she'll celebrate with me a super belated one. awww she's the best :D but yea its alright, not that i really want my birthday to be celebrated. i seriously don't mind just staying at home and do what i like to do.

mummy (:

yes i'm so enjoying the awesome home-cooked food that i'm having now. and of course my mum's company. hmmm but i have to admit that her presence is really quite distracting, to the extent that i cannot really concentrate on my studying. or maybe my small (but hopefully not too small) brain is just too saturated with all the knowledge that i cannot absorb anything.

its so scary how we have to memorise EVERY SINGLE THING in our notes and of course MORE from textbooks. there's no such thing as crapping stuff out for subjects like anatomy, embryology, histology and dent materials. seriouslyyy dent materials can drive me crazy.

STUDY.

[oh and melbourne's weather is totally crazy. =/ ]