:)

back to being a happy me. thank God for putting me through all that has happened. i supposed i've learnt stuff and have become a stronger person?

anyways i wanted to blog about a lot of stuff after last weds but i ended up procrastinating all the way till today.

sydney trip was a short retreat for me, but well, its still a good break. bad weather but good company, so i won't complain.

and yesterday (13th june) was the day :)

:'( and :')

still trying to get over what happened. and i'm so dreading this week, esp tomorrow. Lord, please give me strength to overcome my fears.

i've been thinking way too much, feeling upset about stuff that i should have already gotten over. but u know how there's just some triggers (e.g. people around u) which remind u of unhappy stuff (but of course they don't do it intentionally) which just pulls u back down to where u started off.

anyways kind of relieved that OSCE was over yesterday. holidays have started, but not on a good note, and definitely not the way i want it to start. i keep reminding myself that God've made plans for me, and i should accept them and make the most out of what i'm going through.

so the consequence of thinking too much, is waking up at 6am on the first day of my holiday (after sleeping past 2am the night before). been sleep-deficient the previous nights. i wonder how my mind even have the energy to think about stuff. and crying the moment u wake up isn't a good start to the day. i thought tomorrow is always a better day?

didn't join the rest for post-exam dinner yesterday (didn't want people to sense that i was unhappy), but instead, had dinner with su and joseph (my favourite couple). hanging out with them kind of cheered me up a little. they are just so reassuring. like when they tell u not to think about it, u will really be kind of convinced to not think about it (though its not a lasting effect but at least it works for a while). so glad to have them around. on a side note, su showed me this korean singer that totally made my day and she sent me some pic of me and him side-by-side that she put tgt. awww she's too sweet :)

and my other awesome friends - mitch, yt, jm and parmesh, thanks for showing concern/trying to make me feel better. 

mum has been praying esp hard for me this period and i know my family gives me the utmost moral support. appreciate all that they have done :')

for now, i'll stay strong :')

EOX

(EOX = end of exams)

2.24am.

lying on my bed, watching a (rather) new taiwan drama - in time with you. was asking su what drama is nice to watch and she said she's watching this one at the moment. i've heard of it and so i started to watch it. and... it's really good :) hehe and i've only watched like 1 episode of it, and i'm already addicted to it :)

life after exam is no doubt boring/sian. but i rather come home feeling sian than force myself to sit down and read those notes.

feeling relieved that exams ended. viva yesterday (which was monday, but i felt like i ended exams days ago, i dun know why) was alright. 15 mins of oral exam didn't seem too difficult after all. not trying to say its easy (cause nothing can be easy in dentistry), its just easier/less scary than what we expected. or it could be that we over-stressed/frightened ourselves, cause after all it's our first ever viva voce. there's more to come in 4th and 5th years. btw the 5th years have completed their exams 2 weeks ago and they are graduating officially in early dec. omg damn envious.

just talked to jie on the phone for an hour. and i really really can't wait to go home. excited :)

its 3.32am and i reckon that i should sleep already so that i can wake up before 10am tomorrow to use my off-peak internet to watch the show :) oh and i woke up at 6.05am today (tues) - on the first day after exams. just can't sleep in.

good night (morning).

after exams

YES EXAMS ARE OVERRRR. THANK GOD for bringing me through this whole period of stress/uncertainty/homesickness etc etc.

like what i expected, i don't feel excited about being done with exams. just have the finally-i-don't-have-to-study feeling.

went out with parmesh and su for shopping before we met the rest for dinner at this greek restaurant called Aspro Ble. service was awesome, with the owner explaining to us what the dishes on the menu meant and serving us complimentary salad and wine. he's so nice and warm so we ended up giving quite a bit of tips. and the food was good too. but the menu was pretty limited in choices though.
we then went to sit down at TenRen (this chinese tea place) to talk for a bit. was super tired and really tempted to go home but thought that it would be nice to stay and chat for a bit since yc, justin and jin were flying off the next day. so we stayed till super late and it was scary (since its a friday night) walking on the streets when we headed home. some drivers were simply crazy.

sigh i feel so emo now that exams are over. why, i also don't know.
maybe i miss home and should have gone home. pam is in cairns now and i'm already missing her. i don't look forward to going sydney next thurs too. (somehow i'm hoping that the volcanic ash thing will be back and our flight will be cancelled. very very bad of me to be having that thought.)

plans for the weekend. do housework (very urgent! haha) and shopping tomorrow with parmesh before she flies back. and i'm going gym at su's place on sunday. i'm going to start watching secret garden (korean drama) and probably finish it before going to sydney. i hope this sounds exciting enough.

3.16am. time to sleep and wake up to the mess that's in my apt.

goodnight world. tomorrow will be a better day!

post-exams

exams ended on a really bad note. :'( ahh shall not talk about it. its over and all i can do is to pray hard that things will turn out fine somehow.

went karaoke at night after dinner and sang till 3am (: LOLL the guys were so funny that they made me laugh so hard. i guess everyone really needed to unwind v badly after exams.

had to pack and move my stuff to pam's and oony's place after exams because i'm moving out of my current place. SO DAMN TIRING. packing almost killed me. had only 3 hours of sleep for the last two days cause there's just too many things to pack. totally shocked at the amount of stuff that accumulated over 2 years. i think i had 15 boxes/bags of stuff. but had two friends to help with the moving. awww the guys were really sweet can. but i seriously feel so bad that they had to carry so many things in the rain and gerard's car got damaged (though not serious) :(

the weather's so nice today (: going to safeway and vic market to buy some stuff to bring back home. and going DFO south wharf to shop later. life's good after exams (:

exams r FINALLY over [and so is year 1]. this exam had practically wrung me dry as i felt really mentally and physically drained after my last paper. i didn't even had the energy to cry out for joy that exam's over. all the papers were okay (i think) but its really going to be hard to predict the marks. and that's the scary part :(

past few days were more or less, shopping + eating + sightseeing with mummy. and we were busy packing and spring-cleaning the apt. almost done with packing and i'm ready to go back sg tmr (:

see u guys.