God is so amazing :D

really thank God for showering so much love on me :)

:'( and :')

still trying to get over what happened. and i'm so dreading this week, esp tomorrow. Lord, please give me strength to overcome my fears.

i've been thinking way too much, feeling upset about stuff that i should have already gotten over. but u know how there's just some triggers (e.g. people around u) which remind u of unhappy stuff (but of course they don't do it intentionally) which just pulls u back down to where u started off.

anyways kind of relieved that OSCE was over yesterday. holidays have started, but not on a good note, and definitely not the way i want it to start. i keep reminding myself that God've made plans for me, and i should accept them and make the most out of what i'm going through.

so the consequence of thinking too much, is waking up at 6am on the first day of my holiday (after sleeping past 2am the night before). been sleep-deficient the previous nights. i wonder how my mind even have the energy to think about stuff. and crying the moment u wake up isn't a good start to the day. i thought tomorrow is always a better day?

didn't join the rest for post-exam dinner yesterday (didn't want people to sense that i was unhappy), but instead, had dinner with su and joseph (my favourite couple). hanging out with them kind of cheered me up a little. they are just so reassuring. like when they tell u not to think about it, u will really be kind of convinced to not think about it (though its not a lasting effect but at least it works for a while). so glad to have them around. on a side note, su showed me this korean singer that totally made my day and she sent me some pic of me and him side-by-side that she put tgt. awww she's too sweet :)

and my other awesome friends - mitch, yt, jm and parmesh, thanks for showing concern/trying to make me feel better. 

mum has been praying esp hard for me this period and i know my family gives me the utmost moral support. appreciate all that they have done :')

for now, i'll stay strong :')

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Praise the Lord :)

happy mummy's day :D

<3 u always :)

love u jie :)

had an awesome time during easter hol with my sis in melb :)

now its time to get back to work and not be distracted.

:D

i'm so proud of you, daddy :)

live, love and laugh

i feel so blessed with abundant love from my family and friends. i do feel this way usually, but this feeling is especially strong today (:

spoke to my family for a long time just now in the evening (i think its the longest time we talked over the phone, excluding skype) and it made me really happy. i called my dad's mobile and he greeted me in an especially cheerful manner - it was quite funny now that i think of it (cause he sounded a bit high), but it felt really good. i love my daddy! and then we talked before passing the phone around to my mum and sis (as usual). every one sounded so happy and excited (not because i called... its just the occasionally 'high' feeling that we get from spending time together as a family). and this really makes me miss spending quality time with them. its the weekends when we would just spend time tgt at home either in front of the tv, or in our rooms where my dad would be playing comp games, and we would talk and laugh about stuff that can be really silly (especially making fun of my mum that makes us laugh like mad - my mum's just so cute!). yes, we sound crazy as a family (act childish and stuff), its just that nice and warm feeling that makes me feel very attached to my family. My family gives me strength and makes my life so purposeful. i feel so blessed =D

and my lao gong sent me an e-mail once again! :D love receiving her e-mails cause they make me laugh. i'm really thankful for her love! this e-mail was really funny cause she said how she saw the dental ball photos and said that i wanted to seduce some guys. and some guys were worthy to be her love rival. blah blah blah. yes she's just so crappy but i love her crappiness! i called her immediately (that's what i always do when i received her e-mail cause i'm just so excited to talk to her that i wouldn't want to reply by e-mail and wait for her reply. had quite a short conversation but it was nice catching up with her. just want to tell her to jiayou! i love her so much!

pam's really sweet to give tricia and me a mooncake cause we were just craving so much for it. my dad got lots of Tung Lok mooncakes (which are for goodness sake, super duper yummy) in singapore - I WANTTT TO EAT SO BADLY! i cannot wait to go back Singapore! the spring weather is crazy (wind, please stop blowing) and its making me wanting to go back singapore even more.

love all my family and friends!

thoughts

i read a note that my friend from dent wrote on fb, and i feel very strongly for it, esp this paragraph,

"when for weeks you've been praying for wisdom, trying to seek God's will, seeking a direction or a kind of certainty, trusting in faith and comforted only by the promise that the Lord will answer your prayers in His own good time.. and just when you begin to feel a little too weary, the Lord answers your call for help, and gives you a very certain assurance that He will direct your paths!"


and so i keep my family and friends in prayer =D

happy

today's my mum's birthday! happy birthday mummy! truckloads of love <3 <3 <3

yup, i'm happy today. =D =D =D

basically because lots of funny things happened today. plenty. would really love to share with others but i'll just go bursting out with laughter before i can speak anything intelligibly so i look crazy.

today was the dean's welcome session for nus foe. we sat together as an og and with shuyi's aj friends who were really nice=). shuyi sang this v funny song and i really laughed like crazy. then chongren's silly actions also made me laughed. etc. etc. etc. lots of other funny stuff. oh, and i saw jo! wanted to talk to her about some stuff but didn't have the chance.

went back to nj to collect the cert. met wh and then kc. couldn't play badminton with them today! but don't think i'll go even if i can make it cause its so far. and like what i say, carrying the badminton racket from my house to bukit gombak will make me look so silly. next time, u guys must come toa payoh or hougang to play! had a pretty long chat with them at the canteen. wh told us about his participation in ndp. v funny. he's in some bird float segment. HAHA. ok, that got me and kc laughing like crazy. and i told them about my driving. oh my, now come to think of it, i shouldn't have said so much, cause its v embarrassing. and wh actually said he will avoid the roads at yck. [apparently he was the second person who said that =x] eh hello, i'm such a cautious driver and even a bus driver [beside my car at a traffic light] encouraged me u know! i shall buck up for my driving so i won't be laughed at anymore! =/

met amelia + friend (choo ting) near the field (whatever that place is called, i forgot) and we talked bad about kahyan within that short period of time! haha, just joking la. we'll always love u, kahyan! oh, and i saw my junior, jinxian playing soccer at the field. oh my, he's like so free can. thought prelims' arriving in 3 weeks time. just want to wish my juniors all the best in their revision =D and wh's so kaypoh lor, kept asking about ________ & me. that's like so ... ... haha.

went for dinner with family at miyabi jap restaurant. great food. shall post the pictures another time.

oh, i need an icing bag, those kind for decorating cakes. i'm going to bake a cake for _________. haha, must be honoured! i need it urgently so if anyone has it, pls lend it to me!

i'm loving 萧敬腾 more! think he's v adorable. and of course talented. =D