home sweet home

everything's fine and good. thank god.

its just so nice to back home ((: except maybe the weather.
the weather's so damn hot. haven't perspired ever since i went melb. okay i think i'm already missing melb's cold weather. was like less than 10deg this morning and now its 30plus deg here. oh mannn.

my mum's cooking dinner tonight... smells damn good (:

singapore, here i come

cause of swine flu, all my plans for this winter break have changed..

hmm.

i'm going back to singapore next week. but have not decided on the date that i should book my ticket (though seriously, i should make up my mind latest by tmr in case there's no more seats available). justin's flying back on thurs, tricia most prob also, so i guess thurs would be good (all 3 of us are so going to wear masks) though i thought the earlier the better (like next tues or wed). but i need some time to clean up the house and pack my stuff.

have to shop like crazy the next few days before i go back cause now's the end-of-financial-year sale in aust. lots of good sales which singapore's GSS cannot compare to.

ohhh and i have to forfeit my sydney ticket :( cause i'll most prob stay in singapore till third week of july (must maximise my stay in singapore since flying back is not cheap and to make things worse - the exchange rate). told mitch about it and he also agrees with me, and he's sort of changing his plans to coming to melb. oh man how can he come to melb when i'm not around.

anyways, i have so much things to do when i'm back in singapore. i'm so going to eat all my fave food and go to my fave hangouts with my dearies. =D i need to play my piano, watch my tv, revise driving my dad's car, and lots of other stuff. lol, we singaporeans that r going back are going to have nice bakchormee tgt (we call it the BCM outing) and i'm kind of afraid of the weather back in singapore, though its freaking cold here that sometimes i rather feel warm (but not sticky).

(happy stuff aside..)i feel so moody/grumpy nowadays and its making me v mean. i hate being mean :(

oh finally exams and sem 1 ended. well i'm going to forget everything that happened in sem 1 and start life anew in sem 2. its going to be a better sem. definitely.

sighhh

yes i know i shouldn't be posting anything now (and anytime till next thurs) cause i still have so so many chapters to cover within these few days before i step into the exam hall at royal exhibition centre next tues [oh man, and i need to check out the exact location of my exam venue]. shall give myself 10-15 mins of break before i'll continue with the studying :( damn stressed.

(ok here i go again,)
i feel like crying [and i do cry] whenever i think of my pre-exam life in singapore. i totally miss my mum's birdnest and ginseng. and my dad/sis's car ride to somewhere to chill out at night whenever i'm totally sick of studying. they'll be more than willing to drive me to have some nice coffee and it really helps so much to get away from the books just for a while. and and, i don't have to worry about dozing off while studying on my bed, cause my daddy or mummy will wake me up early next morning automatically so that i can study. i can always look forward to (extra) nice meals prepared by my mum during our exams cause she knows my sis and i need good food to destress. etc etc

sigh sigh sigh :'(

its just so different now that i'm here alone to fight the battle :( ok i think i sound spoilt but seriously, i cannot help it..its damn sad to be away from your family when u need them the most.

anyway its almost confirmed that i'm not going back to singapore this winter break :( but i'll be going to sydney to look for mitch (booked the ticket already :) ). okay i think skyping with him yesterday really made me feel better, cause he's been through what i'm going through now, though i can still say its different. managed to tell him some stuff, but like what i told him, so much has happened (i can write a book, like seriously) and its not possible to tell him over skype over that hour. anyways, i'm telling myself not to think so much, its not going to help, especially now what i need most is to FOCUS on my exams prep.

and why must it be so gloomy during winter! :( i need to keep my life bright.