holidays

been so busy, running here and there to do lots of random stuff. yea, but it feels good that u are busy over things over than academic-related stuff. we are doing a video for our friend's birthday cause we can't be there in msia to celebrate her birthday. getting the guys to contribute a recording of their personal messages is really quite difficult. yea but gerard and justin did a really funny job. loll. i ROFL-ed every time i watch it.
someone actually said that he didn't want to do it cause it was embarrassing and i was super pissed with him. haha but in the end he sent the video over in the evening. and that made me feel touched. loll. guys ah guys.

yayy i'm going tassie after sydney with mitch and his friend and hopefully my friend can come along too. haven't been to tassie so i'm kind of looking forward. i'm not sure if i should go to gold coast the week before uni starts =/ i'm not the amusement park kind of person and i'm already going to spend quite a bit on the two trips + shopping in melb. but its also provided that there's friends to join me for the goldie trip.

been looking at some of my friends' grad trip / exchange photos on fb. ahh damn pretty. now i'm considering to get a DSLR.

i springcleaned my house yesterday before my friends came over to film the video. so satisfied with myself :)

waiting for pam to call me (she's back from cairns) before we'll go out for a meal tgt (:

after exams

YES EXAMS ARE OVERRRR. THANK GOD for bringing me through this whole period of stress/uncertainty/homesickness etc etc.

like what i expected, i don't feel excited about being done with exams. just have the finally-i-don't-have-to-study feeling.

went out with parmesh and su for shopping before we met the rest for dinner at this greek restaurant called Aspro Ble. service was awesome, with the owner explaining to us what the dishes on the menu meant and serving us complimentary salad and wine. he's so nice and warm so we ended up giving quite a bit of tips. and the food was good too. but the menu was pretty limited in choices though.
we then went to sit down at TenRen (this chinese tea place) to talk for a bit. was super tired and really tempted to go home but thought that it would be nice to stay and chat for a bit since yc, justin and jin were flying off the next day. so we stayed till super late and it was scary (since its a friday night) walking on the streets when we headed home. some drivers were simply crazy.

sigh i feel so emo now that exams are over. why, i also don't know.
maybe i miss home and should have gone home. pam is in cairns now and i'm already missing her. i don't look forward to going sydney next thurs too. (somehow i'm hoping that the volcanic ash thing will be back and our flight will be cancelled. very very bad of me to be having that thought.)

plans for the weekend. do housework (very urgent! haha) and shopping tomorrow with parmesh before she flies back. and i'm going gym at su's place on sunday. i'm going to start watching secret garden (korean drama) and probably finish it before going to sydney. i hope this sounds exciting enough.

3.16am. time to sleep and wake up to the mess that's in my apt.

goodnight world. tomorrow will be a better day!

last paperrr

3 more hours to the start of my last paper. totally not in the mood to study. i think i'm kind of prepared (or rather i just want to get over and done with it)? just pray for no mental blocks later during the exam.
path is such a self-study subject. the notes are just pictures and u'll have to read up in order to have something to study. so i guess how well we do for this paper depends on how much we read and whether we read the correct stuff.
i really miss being spoon-fed.

i have a feeling that i won't feel damn excited/relieved that exams r over later when it finally ends. maybe cause this whole thing has been dragging and dragging for such a long time that i'm just mentally drained to feel anything. and another reason could be that i'm not going back to sg this winter break. going back home always brings excitement, at least more excitement than staying here. also haven't got much plans for this hol.

cheer myself on,

almost there but not there yet

med paper was erm.. okay.
BUT, it was a choose-5-out-of-8 essay questions kind of paper. and i sort of had a (very) difficult time choosing my 5th question to do. and guess what. i think i made the wrong choice. cause halfway through, i felt as if i was a bit bullshitting along. hopefully the lecturer is lenient and thinks that i make some sense. and i really really pray that my other 4 questions can make it.

next paper (and FINAL ONE (FINALLY)!) is this friday. pathology part II.

i've been updating about my exam papers and it sounds like i'm taking so many subjects right. but actually everything adds up to 100% (they call it Oral Health Sciences 3 to put it really nicely from their point of view) even though each of them are different subjects. med, path and pharm. all are crazily hardcore subjects (we study like shit for each and every one of them) but they are only worth 30%, 30% and 40%. so not worth it. seriouslyy.
its not like we can put in 30% or 40% of effort for each of them.

this friday's paper is worth 18% of OSH 3. sounds little but still have to chiong if i don't want to screw the whole OHS grade up.
(but i'm taking a break tonight first. really need a rest la)

this morning was just so stressful. that's why i don't like afternoon papers. u feel like u have to study once through again in the morning cause u don't want to be slacking away just before your paper. and i barely finished my 2nd round of revision at 1pm and my paper starts at 2pm.

after dinner, i went over to pam's place to borrow a plaster cause i cut my finger yet again. and we chatted for pretty long (what we always do whenever we go over to each other's unit). her last paper is this wed, then she's headed to cairns and then back to melb for a few days before heading back to sg for good.
sigh. i'll miss her so badly.
i rely so much on her. i'm just so scared that i'll feel lost next sem without her around.

yesterday when i was cramming for med, i remembered that it was tw's golden melody awards on saturday so i went to check who won what. and ya, jay chou won two big awards. good on him. haha. i'm seriously weird. stressing over my exams and at the same time can be bothered over such things. but these are good distractions, aren't they.

last paper, go go go!

persevere

i hope i can stay up late tonight to study as much of med as i can.

after tomorrow, it'll be better, i reckon.

(i just ate my 4th instant noodles during this exam period. feel like puking.)

oh and,

Happy Fathers' Day, Daddy!
love u <3

why

i really don't know what's wrong with me.

:(

first written paper

pharm paper was okay and i think i managed my time relatively well but i kept having to squeeze information out of my brain during the exam. i missed out 2-3 points but i'm glad i remember most.
(mummy always tell me to not expect too much and be contented with whatever state i'm in.)

almost went crazy memorising all the content. it was that bad.

having a headache now but i have to study for tmr's morning pathology pract.

JIA YOU!

so screwed

:'(

couldn't pack my amalgam restoration properly.
had some deficiency and excess on the same resin incisal corner restoration.
how bad is that for a pract exam. :(

but at least i had something to hand up (if i want to make myself feel a tweeny bit better).
imagine if i had decided to remove my restoration and re-do at the last minute but had no time. that's the worst ever that can happen.

feeling so so down :'(

haven't spoke to mummy for almost 5 days cause i can't bring myself to call her. i'll just break down (as it always happen during exams).

what should i do :(

:'(

I need a hug from my Jie/mummy/daddy badly :(

another (depressing) day of studying

加油!!