emo

suddenly feel scared for my cons (pract) exams and my written papers.

suddenly miss home (esp my mummy) so much.

:'(

last day of year 3 sem 1

okay, not officially halfway through the course cause there's still exams, but we are nearly there right? :)

many of my friends have already embarked on their grad trip and i'm really happy for them that they have graduated. not feeling sour that i still have such a long way to go (actually not that long cause time will fly) cause i'm really enjoying what i'm studying and i'm glad i made it this far already. Praise God for everything :)

coming up is swot vac (study break). dreading it totally :( been so slack this sem.. didn't make much notes as compared to previous semesters (cause i think the lecture notes are kind of sufficient?). yea but still, i feel kind of inadequate. have to admit that i'm not as driven as before. :(

hopefully i won't do too badly this sem. seriously, who doesn't want to do well?

another unproductive day

fullstop.

lazy and slack =(

yep that pretty much summed up my week. sigh. this is probably like the slackest i've ever been since year 1. i did some work, but its not sufficient (i think).

the cold weather is making me lazy. de-motivated to do anything, except maybe cooking and baking. i need to stop eating so much :( i bought so much groceries from vic mart just now and i've been looking at recipes online to see what i can whip up. such a waste of time right.

my patient yesterday made me feel good. she's so nice and sweet (if only all patients were like her) and said things like "your injection was good because i didn't feel dizzy which i felt last time when i had an injection". haha but really, i'm sure its not that the previous student/dentist was lousy or anything (since its more of the patient's anatomy that plays a part in a successful LA) . but it still made me feel good (:

cold~

its 7am now and i'm shivering!! the weather has been freaking cold the past few days. so difficult to study or to even sit still in front on my study table, resisting the temptation to snuggle under my warm fleece. i guess that's why i keep falling asleep early (thanks to studying on the bed =//). and i keep drinking loads of hot water at night to make myself warm (bet that made my face looking swollen in the morning).

and the weather forecast says there's "local hail and thunder" today. sigh sigh.

my exam timetable came out on monday. super not looking forward to it. got two weeks (freaking long) of study break before my lst paper. 4 papers over a period of 2 weeks thereafter. the whole studying thing is going to last 4 weeks. I'll going to be drained like crazy :( and i'm definitely going to lose my steam studying during that 2 weeks of study break. at least give me 1 paper during the 1st week of exam and end the whole process earlier. now i don't feel the urgency to chiong my revision since i feel that i have ample time (and hopefully that's true).

so many things unsettled/undecided. should i go for the prize ceremony (will have to skip my occlusion preclinic and the last pharm lecture of the sem and pam has to skip her tutorial to accompany me)? the stupid dental school alwaysz spoil my plans by rescheduling sessions =/. and i haven't book my air ticket to new zealand after exams (need to arrange some stuff first) =( hopefully the cheaper fares will stay the way they are. and should i work during my winter break after my new zealand trip or travel to other places? quite tempted to work though. haha can earn extra money to shop during the end of financial year sale. :D

not having a lot of luck with patients the past week. sian. patients can't make it for my wed perio session so i have to squeeze them into my fri gp session (meaning i have to do perio during gp when i have other stuff to do) and i hardly have any gp sessions left before it's exams and holidays. won't see them till 2 months later. hope their carious lesions don't progress or it'll be beyond my ability to treat them and have to refer to senior/specialist. seeing a new patient today and she's coming late :( guess i can't do much today again.

realised i keep sighing these few days. very loudly. hahha.

okay, time to go to uni.

=D

feeling super tired after a full day in uni today but i have to prepare for my presentations for tomorrow and wednesday. hope everything goes fine!

received a good news today and i was very surprised when i heard it!

God is indeed faithful. Thank God for everything!