exams are comingggg

just when i thought life was better this sem, things are starting to go downhill.

had heaps of fun during easter in sydney (good company + good food) and also had a nice time in melb with friends during the first half of the sem (housewarming parties, birthday parties, good brunches and dinners, karaoke, footy match etc).

been studying consistently but lately i've been feeling very sick and tired of studyingg and everything else that has to do with studying. its getting nowhere. so many subjects this sem: biochem, anatomy, physiology, human behaviour and devt, cons dent, perio and cario, oral biology. :( when i memorise one subject, i'll forget about what i've already studied for other subjects. this is just so bad.

and exam timetable is out. CRYYYYYY. start on the first day of exam and my last paper is on the last day of exam. called emirates to change my flight back to sg. felt like crying because i can't go home earlier. :( i want to go home asap.

there's so many things going on during this july and i was so looking forward. but now my holidays r shorter than i expected.

julyy!
*my sis graduation ceremony (i'm so proud that my sis has completed her chem eng deg!)
*my 21st
*friends' 21st
*JAY CHOU CONCERT! =D ROW 11. how awesome is that (:

happy for my nus friends who have completed their exams! YAYNESS! and to those ntu peeps, hanggg in there!


miss my family and friends very very much.

life is as such

JO! THANKS for your fb message PLUS tags (: glad that i talked to u cause it made me feel better. yup i'll TRY to dwell less on things and get some optimism from u. u too stress less okay?

ahhh if only i could do whatever i feel like doing.

like, go to bed and sleep when i'm super tired and already dozing off on my notes. and not feel guilty that i have not completed the chapters that i planned to revise. [ really miss those times when i could just sleep well throughout the night and not think about stuff on my bed ]

like, be anti-social and not go out with friends when i don't feel like it and just tell them "cause i don't feel like going anywhere". don't like the feeling of having to come out with excuses that i have something else on cause all i'll end up doing is to stay at home and have some quiet time with myself. [yes and i realised how much i like spending time with myself. had a morning walk after my 1st lesson ended yesterday. walked along lygon and grab my favourite hot cross bun from baker's delight. i felt kind of carefree (at least for a while)].

how i wish i won't feel guilty whenever i feel like i'm wasting time. its a horrible feelingggg :( i hate having to plan for the days ahead. like how i must study more today in case there are outings the next few days. it didn't used to be like that (before i came to melb). wonder what happened to me :( realised that whatever i talk about in here is somewhat related to study. but sometimes i feel that its not the amount of work that is driving me crazy, but rather its myself pushing myself too hard and there's nobody here to stop me. its like a positive feedback cycle. whenever i study ahead of my plan, i'll have excess time which i'll just use it to study more. and the cycle just goes on. sometimes i tell myself that even if i take things a bit easier, i'll still do fine. but i still can't do it though i'm trying hard. SIGHHH.

and deep in my heart, i know studies aren't worrying me the most. rather its the thing that starts with R. i know nobody can help me cause i need to answer the question myself and its just mindblowing. debb is always there for me whenever i need someone to talk about it. very grateful for this friend (: and whenever i mention this issue to my mum, she'll say some things and i'll just feel very bad. i don't want her to know that i'm at it again. not sure if i'm making the right decision or have i even decided on it. i really don't know.

1st two weeks of semester

i kind of like my timetable now. i have an almost free thurs every alternative week. but every other thurs are crazy; 8 - 5pm. the clinical sessions are towards the end of the week which give me something to look forward to.
Taking six sub-subjects this sem which makes it confusing and difficult to focus on the more important subjects. sighh.

1st two weeks of melb have been rather slack. been watching my taiwanese dramas and hanging out with friends. really miss the brunch here and i'm so glad that debb and i went for brunch at this awesome cafe at Balaclava (some suburb near st kilda). but there was a hailstorm that day so we were sort of stuck in the cafe and couldn't walk and look around.







have sort of finalised my easter plans! booked a ticket to sydney, will be spending about 1 week there (which is basically the whole easter week). i hope it'll be fun (:

so glad that i can listen to 933 online, it makes me feel like i'm at home in sg.
weather's turning cold but i like it =D

3 months of hols coming to an end;

thought maybe i should just update this blog even though i'm really busy with lots of stuff (sch stuff + packing) and time's really running out. 1 day left before i head back to melb.

how i wish this 3 months break wouldn't come to an end. but no such thing (yes i know).

out of the 3 months, i spent 2 months working. amazed at myself for being able to stay in that company for 2 months. its the most horrifying work i've ever did... and i've never complained so much in my life. sometimes i really wanted to blast at those pple but eventually i didn't. aiya, why should i even bother about them, that's what i'll tell myself. seriously. now that its OVER finally i shall (try) forget about the whole thing.

cny gathering with relatives and meet-ups with friends have been awesome (: kind of felt that cny was different this year for me. more warmth i guess <3
really love my family and friends.

will see everyone when i'm back in june/july. i know time flies.

hols

goshh i'm so enjoying singapore, even though i can't say that i've accomplished much since i came back. been driving around in dad's car, shopping around and watching dramas at home (most of the time) etc.

haven't got many plans for the hols...but i should probably make more plans since its a long 3 months break. okayy, i'm sort of looking for a job, but i'm being very picky and indecisive about what job i should take up. rejected a couple of jobs offered by the recruit agency, partly because of the pay. the agency pple talk to me so much about how i should just be contented with the pay they are offering cause its recession now (blah blah blah). its irritatinggggg.

my grandma's maid is at my house now and she's really quite pro i must say. she graduated from a uni in phillipines and she's talking to me about anatomy cause she knows i'm studying dentistry. she asked me what's the author/publisher of my anatomy text and she told me which text she used last time! O_o LOL (maids nowadays!) and she probably knows more than me cause i only studied head, neck and thorax.

next week would be a busier week, i reckon. more meet-ups! [and ben, if u r reading this, i'm so sorry for forgetting about dinner yesterday. next week or next next week will do dinner, i promise!]

i'll be getting back my results soon =(. it'll turn out fine, right?

for now, it'll be baking and exercising [badminton with yu ting just now was fun! :D]

exams r FINALLY over [and so is year 1]. this exam had practically wrung me dry as i felt really mentally and physically drained after my last paper. i didn't even had the energy to cry out for joy that exam's over. all the papers were okay (i think) but its really going to be hard to predict the marks. and that's the scary part :(

past few days were more or less, shopping + eating + sightseeing with mummy. and we were busy packing and spring-cleaning the apt. almost done with packing and i'm ready to go back sg tmr (:

see u guys.

mummy (:

yes i'm so enjoying the awesome home-cooked food that i'm having now. and of course my mum's company. hmmm but i have to admit that her presence is really quite distracting, to the extent that i cannot really concentrate on my studying. or maybe my small (but hopefully not too small) brain is just too saturated with all the knowledge that i cannot absorb anything.

its so scary how we have to memorise EVERY SINGLE THING in our notes and of course MORE from textbooks. there's no such thing as crapping stuff out for subjects like anatomy, embryology, histology and dent materials. seriouslyyy dent materials can drive me crazy.

STUDY.

[oh and melbourne's weather is totally crazy. =/ ]