moody

i'm officially homesick. i so want to see my daddy, mummy and jie [especially my jie] :( :( :( i really miss them so much. sighhh studying for ibs made me so depressed that i cannot stop feeling sad and crying. i feel so demoralised whenever i think about ibs. i need support from my family so badly!

getting v moody nowadays. lots and lots of things running through my mind that i'll just feel like breaking down whenever i cannot take it anymore. its just so torturous that i have to pretend that i'm alright and taking things easy. the only good thing is that i have pam around to give me some support [i'll always call and talk to her when i'm feeling so terrible], but still, i don't dare to cry in front of her (though i'm dying to] cause i think she'll worry about me, and this is bad cause she is already stressed by sch. i love pam so much.

went ballarat today with a group of friends. wasn't in the mood to enjoy myself. anyway i slept really late last night (past 4am) and woke up at 7 today cause we were meeting at southern cross station. am tired now but i don't feel like sleeping yet. somehow now i feel that i dislike sleeping. what's wrong with me. i'm going to wake up early to do some gym tmr cause i think i put on a lot of weight. i seriously hate to put on weight.

i'm feeling so terrible :(